Out with the old...

There's something to be said about change, change is tough but if change is forced upon you then all you can do is ride the waves along the way.

Today I changed the locks on my front and back door retaking full control of my house. It is from this point only I and my parents can enter this address.

Part of me was really hoping it didn't come down to this, however this seems to be the path I am being forced down so my role is just to trust in something bigger than me and embrace it riding the waves instead of resisting.

I feel really sad saying this as I genuinely like the person and we did get along, however she made a choice to push me away and disregard all the good times we had together. I respect her and appreciate the times we had together and I really don't want to do this but it's time to emotionally disconnect.

Throughout the relationship, I comprimised wherever I could and by doing so all it did was made her take more. I had forgiven her time and time again for various things which she took for granted and seemed like she started doing more and more. I really wanted to make it work but my assumption now looking back is as soon as she felt like it was settling, she started detaching. It seemed to be as soon as I was moving into a house and she ran the real likelihood of moving in with me it all of a sudden turned. I wonder if she just wasn't ready to settle down and the idea just scared her. Looking back, I now believe she just wanted friendship and some company!

Whichever guy she gets with next, I really hope for his sake and hers that she has spent more time to discover herself as in independent adult first.

The curious thing is, would I get back with her in the future? Surprisingly the answer is yes (shock) but only after she finds herself a little more and is ready to settle down in a more serious relationship. We really did work together and that is why this is such a hard breakup. Part of me still finds this bizarre and I don't think that will ever leave me!

On the off chance you are reading this, no hard feelings whatsoever and I wish you the best of luck on your journey of life moving forward! Best wishes.

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