it amazes me how things can be so cyclical in life.
Yet again, another failed relationship but I genuinely wonder what happened. Considering that the only variable that stayed the same in both of these relationships was me... I know I am to blame.
Saying that, I am reflecting back on my choices of Women. When I met my ex, she was under-confident, timid, incapable, couldn't even speak to a waiter on a meal out to order her food she was that under-confident and yet several years later she has grown substantially.
I am a Christian and I am starting to think my role was never to be with her indefinitely but instead just to help her grow as a human being and I seem to have done that really well! She is 10x the person she was when we first met and I can take pride in knowing how much I have helped another human being along the way.
Part of me feels sorry for her now due to a death of a close family member, she has changed her energy and tone although it seems to be going better than I thought. I hope she pulls through!
I need to stop doing this, stop finding people to fix and start finding people to compliment my life instead!
Of course, I still have internal issues myself and perhaps they need to be resolved before I go looking for a partner to compliment my life hence this journey of 2021 and the blog has begun. This will be an incredible year to find myself, grow, develop, gain confidence and truely succeed.
Here's to a new year, new me and new life. Let the good times roll!!!